Violet Red

It's been a long time, for anyone how has looked at this blog and been disapinted that I had not updated, I apoligize.

Untill only a few minutes ago I hadn't even thought about this place for a long time. I Havent even looked at it once this summer.


Well now, where do I start.

How about this, if you need to know anything, then you know me and I've already told you, so this is a wast of time.



Take care everone. I have a life and I'm off to live that life.


~~Tarik

coffee anyone?

I played capture teh flag friday. There is a game of capture the flag every 2 weeks at the U of M, not many peepl came out this time, there were only 40 or so. It was still lots of fun. That was about all the fun I've had this weekend.

I have a few exam next week. If anyone is interested in taking them for me give me a call.
I've been studing all weekend, and will still be guessing on a third of the questions for chem.

Well i'd write more but i got to get back to studing and maybe guess on a few less questions.

Haven't changed

Monday I was ignorant and in bliss.
Tuesday I realized that I fail you.
Wednesday I couldn't sleep at all.
Thursday I started trying again.
Friday I started the game.
Saturday I woke from a dream.
Sunday I spent the day waiting.

When I Wake Up

They speak and I understand. I understand that I am speaking to myself. But when I wake up the message is gone. Or it is not words anymore but a feeling. An instinct to keep looking, to keep up the search for a sign.

Which I do not believe exists.

Take it as you will

It's late again, well no it's early if I want to tell the truth. And the last person just singed off, no they are not going sleep he went to the gym.


I feel awake, I feel alive. I know shouldn't but I do. It is not something I can change.

It's simple really, when you put it in perspective. It just doesn't seem to work that way for me.

I sit back, in the comfortable nest like arrangement I've made out of blankets on the sofa.

I relax, allowing my head to rest against that back of the soft pillow. My eyes close, it can not be helped.

As my mind clears of all it petty thoughts, I drift closer to sleep. The sandman has me in his sighs.

I'm not yet sleeping. You know the feeling, it's a dream state, and you can leave when ever you want.

Leave, sure I can, but I would stay there all day. I'm just awake enough to retain a full memory of the dreams.

Ticking the seconds on the clock, they don't seem to slow. I know it's been a few hours now, I'll have to get up soon.

I lift my head, turn in the direction of the clock. My eyes slowly lift open. As I had expected I have class in 2 hours.

It's been like that for days now, I'm never really asleep. Never really awake, always somewhere in between.